Four Eyes

Lalala...here I am busting out a post out of no where. I've got a lot on my mind right now, so I'm blogging in an effort to get my mind off of things. Now to think of something to write about...

Well, to start off, HIIII!!! Long time so see.

Nothing much going on with me...doing the same 9-5 routine everyday and volunteering on weekends. I don't have many pictures to share with you all because recently had a huge acne outbreak all over my face and I've been trying nursing my skin back to health for the last two months. I'm not going to show any pictures of my acne-covered face, but let's just say I looked something like this. Well, my skin is not back to perfect yet, but it's getting there.

The culprit for my acne breakout???



That shit right there!!! Fucking MAC MSFs!!! When the MAC Sugarsweet Collection came out, I went nuts for the MSFs. I really liked them, so I ended up buying 3 of each color (that's $150 worth of powder right there!). I wore them everyday on my face, loved it, but kept breaking out. I was in denial at the time because I was in love with the MSFs. I made excuses for my breakouts, thinking I wasn't getting enough sleep or I was just stressed out at work. I started to wear the MSFs less and realized I would only break out on the days I wore it. So that's how I knew it was the culprit. But my skin kind of went haywire for a long time even after I completely stopped using the MSFs. I'm still getting a little bit of acne here and there, and still trying to fade the scars. I've since returned all the MSFs. My face is just too sensitive. =(

Here are some pictures of my nice skin before it went crazy on me. These pictures are from Phillip's farewell dinner:


^Me & Calvin


^Me & Mona


^ Me & Phillip - My last picture with him and his eyes are half closed...boo hoo!

So, yea, this was back when my skin was still pretty nice. I don't think I was wearing anything on my face...only eyeliner and lipgloss.

And this is my skin now...as in today:



OMG I'M A FOUR EYES!! I got my glasses today. They make me feel so dizzy...and make me look like I'm in JHS. Luckily, I only have to wear them while I'm at work (my contacts get really dry from staring at the computer screen for so long everyday). ANYWAYS, my skin isn't so bad now...I still have some scarring, but I think my skin is MUCH improved compared to one month ago! I have absolutely no makeup on in that picture...well I have lipgloss on, but that doesn't count.


^ Here you can see some acne scars on my forehead. This was my practice run for Chi's Spring Makeup Contest. I never got to entering because I thought I had to do a whole picture tutorial to enter and I didn't have the time. Looks like not everyone did a tutorial, though. BOO, I guess I could have entered. =( I liked the look, but both my mom and my brother said it was ugly and I looked like a clown. Double =(.



^ *SIGH* I really wish my skin could look like this again...maybe in another month, if I take good care of it.


And to continue on with the randomness of this post, here's a NOTD!


^ I was inspired by Nic Nic to do the gradient look. It's actually really easy and fun to do. The glitter polishes from The Face Shop are super awesome.


I guess that's all for now. What a long post about nothing!

Ta-ta!

Sephora Sale

Just thought I'd share that Sephora is having a 15% off everything sale for all beauty insiders through April 21, 2009.

For the printable in-store coupon, click here. *Note that you will need a beauty insider card to use the coupon.

The online code is BD2T9CB5 and supposedly can be used by anyone, including people who don't have a beauty insider card.

Enjoy!

Source: Slickdeals.net

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On another note, I've concluded that all the creepy guys that so often approach me in public are pedophiles. My reasoning is that 99.9% (not an exaggeration) of people who meet me in person do not believe I am 22 years old. Guesses usually range from 14-18. I think it has a lot to do with my short stature and my soft, child-like voice. Without makeup, I look even younger. But that does not stop grown ass men from trying to kick it to me. Am I supposed to be flattered that even without makeup on I caught someone's eye? No, not when most of the world thinks that I am underage. And it's not like these guys are attracted to my personality or anything (they are strangers after all); they are strictly attracted to my physical features. I can only imagine what goes through their minds when they try to pick me up. And I'm not talking about the hobo drunkards wandering the streets. I'm talking about real guys in suits and shit. And it happens to me so much. These guys are sick man, so sick.

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P.S. I really want to join Chi's spring makeup contest, but I can't think of a good look to do. I suck at putting on makeup these days. I can't even put on eyeliner smoothly. (I'm so sad, I've fallen out of practice. But healthy skin is more important to me, and I'm aiming for perfect skin before the weather turns warm!) But I'll try to pull something out of my ass within the next two weeks.

P.P.S. I just found out my 5-year high school reunion is in 2 months. I feel so old just thinking about it. I can't believe it's been 5 years already.

Adam Lambert for the win!

He is soooo good!



Danny Gokey is also damn good:



And Kris Allen's performance this week was also really good:




"Good" in the above 3 sentences should be translated as: OHHH MAAA GAWDD, WOOOWOWWWOWWWZERS! THEY FREAKIN ROX MY SOX...AND MY PANTIES...AND MY BRA. *DROOL*

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Finding a new job sucks. I am well-qualified for many open positions, but the deal breaker for me most of the time is the extremely low salary offers. I've always known that psychology is not the most lucrative field to get into, but I didn't know it was this bad. The worst job offer I've come across so far is for a full-time substance abuse counselor position working with opiate addicts for a yearly salary of $16,000 before tax. That breaks down to about $7.69/hour, which means I'd only be bringing home about $5/hour after taxes. For a job that requires a bachelor degree and past experience in the field, that salary offer is so unbelievably sad. I still can't believe it!

Anyway, I'm hoping to get a research position at the VA Hospital. I think I could get it, but the problem is that I have no idea what salary they are offering. It's killing me because I can't live off of minimum wage. I can barely live off of what I'm making now. But what am I complaining about...it was my choice to pursue psychology. Oh well, we'll see what happens.

My goodness, it's April already. Time passes by way too quickly...

I'm still here! =)

Wow, I haven't blogged in forever.

No excuses for that, except that I have limited access to internet these days. Not too much has changed since the last time I blogged. A quick update:

• My current job is killing me!!! I hate it so much. I was so stressed out at work earlier this week that I got a nose bleed. Wtf, right? I never get nose bleeds. And I can't talk to the bosses about it because they are the problem! My bosses are so unprofessional it's not even funny. No wonder people just stop showing up to work--they either get fired or simply walk out on the job because they can't handle it. I'm looking for a job in psychology. Wish me luck because I'm going to need it!

• I really like my volunteer job. It's a surprisingly relaxing experience for me. I can no longer refer to my volunteer work in specifics, since I signed a confidentiality agreement with the agency. That means I need to go back and delete all traces of specific references to my volunteer work from this blog, but I'm too lazy right now. But, anyway, from now on, I will only be referring to it as "volunteer work" and as much as I want to, I really can't discuss my experiences in detail.

• I'm trying to move out on my own, but it's proving to be an extremely difficult task. Having a dog in the city is such a bitch! Also, I'm currently on a really tight budget. As much as I hate it, I think it's wiser for me to stay with my mom until I find a better paying job. Why does NYC have to be so freaking expensive? =(

• Calvin and I are giving it another try. Slowly...but surely. Admittedly, we're both really hesitant this time around. I mean, this is our third time trying. Are we fighting a losing battle or is the third time the charm? There's no way of knowing, so we're taking a chance by following out hearts. We're taking it super slow, seeing each other only once a week or less, but we talk on the phone often. It's only been a couple of weeks, but things are really looking up. He even cleaned out a drawer for me! And he's much more responsive and attentive to me now. I can see that he's trying and I appreciate it a lot. We've been talking a lot about why things went wrong before and our expectations for the future. We're trying to be more open and honest about everything with each other (as opposed to bottling up our feelings). Hopefully we don't revert back to old habits. If that happens, our relationship is over for good (and there will be no fourth time around, I promise myself that! I can't handle the heartache). But at least we're trying.
  

I don't really know what else to update on. These are the major things going on in my life right now, nothing too exciting. Sorry I've been absent from this blog for so long. I'll try to update more often.

I don't have any new pictures to share since I lent my camera to Calvin for his China trip, so I shall leave you with a picture of me back in high school when I came back from vacation sunburnt and with an allergic reaction to seafood on my lips. Enjoy!



Hehehe. =P